Well, I think I've reached the point of no longer caring about school. I am frustrated tonight and disappointed to realize I can't do it all...I am hating the time I spend away from my family to work on things that are not helping me learn (ie. busy work...) I'm tired of playing the games with the teachers and am hoping that I can just get through to the end in one piece.
Our regular caregiver gave me her notice last week now leaving me to search for the 4th person to care for the girls in a year. I am pining for consistency in their lives and mine and it seems it will never come. I'm missing my mom tonight and wishing she were here to make my problems all go away...
I met a woman tonight who was certainly nice enough but the fact is, she's not me and she never will be. I hate that I'm doing the interviews alone since no one can live up to my impossible standards. I also hate I can't stay at home...sorry for the sad entry...A brighter day will come soon.
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